Today I decided to write a letter to myself, to kind of help me through all these emotions and feelings racing through my head. I’m not always the greatest at allowing myself to be vulnerable. Letting people see “Me” has been the hardest thing for me to do throughout my life. In most cases I’m real good at allowing people to see the “Funny” and “Strong” Katie. With very few have I felt safe enough to let into my space of vulnerability.
What up Girl! Guess what!?!? You’re a Missionary now! I know I can’t believe it either. I just wanted to let you know, don’t be afraid to let the people you really care about know just how much you’re going to miss them. I know we’re not big huggers but I like to think we’re growing, just as long as they’re not stolen hugs….. So don’t be afraid to hug them a little tighter and him a little longer. You know you don’t always have to be on BEAST MODE right? A little sensitivity does not make you weak, also it’s ok to be in your feelings, and allow those around you to see you sometimes. I’m not saying go around crying at the drop of a hat, but if you do I’m saying it’s ok. You’re leaving what you know and you’re about to embark on a new Journey in Mission With Moore Community House in Biloxi, Mississippi. And that is scary as hell, especially when you still don’t know exactly what you will be doing. I know initially this may not be what you wanted but know that God has worked it out to be exactly what you need, even though you don’t see it now, give it time. As for PCE y’all are going to be alright, just think of how scared you feel at times, He’s probably just as scared but the fact y’all are both stubborn mules won’t make this process any easier. “Love you…. I Love you more” When you miss him tell him and if he’s at work just watch “Tangled” because y’all didn’t start saying I love you like that until y’all watched it together for your birthday in 2010. Any who there will be times when you’re sad, just as well there will be times filled with joy. While in service I want you to make yourself available to be fully present so that you can get all that you can out of this, but also remember your SELF care, because we all know how you get when you haven’t had your space, and don’t forget to check on the your people back in TEXAS. Engage as much as possible with your community, Connect with your local churches and find you a church family, and Grow beyond measure, because get ready for the change this 2 years of service is going to bring you.